weighing the odds.

Coupled with my depression, there is also this distraught pressure to find housing in Chicago. Initially, I felt living at home was impossible, but come to think of it, is it really? As I laid in my bed a couple of hours ago, trying to sleep, I decided to weigh the odds of living at home versus finding an apartment for five months in Chicago. Here is what I came up with.

Pros of living at home:
1). saving tons of money, which I need if I wish to travel.
2). I will have good food on my plate.
3). I will get to speak Vietnamese on a regular basis so that I can improve.
4). I get to see my sister more after not seeing her for a long ass time.
5). I can hang out with a possible new Vietnamese friend who lives near me, who is from Hà Nội.

Cons of living at home:
1). Restrictions
2). Possible arguments with my mother
3). less freedom (this includes, not being able to cook for myself)
4). commuting time kills, but I can always read on the train.
5). Doing whatever I want all the time (but this really just means at night, cause i'm busy all day).
6). having a place outside my parents house (for what though really? I can always stay at my friends place if i need to go for a drink or what not).

After looking at these two lists, I see that saving money is far more important that having a little freedom for 5 months. I prefer to travel the world and experience new things rather than spend that money on a place in Chicago. Whichever decision I would make, I figured that I'd still be depressed about Vietnam, its people, life, and everything about it.

Hạc.